I know that with my children, I teach in the spiral method: the same things every year in increasing complexity.
But I’m wondering if God is using the same kind of curriculum with me?
For goodness sake, it feels like I’ve already learned to trust Him completely in my life.
I haven’t exactly had it easy. But in every trial and difficult circumstance, heartache and physical pain, He has been there for me. And so, I trust Him.
Christ, that is. Creator of the Universe who loves and cares for me in spite of … me. I know Who He is, what He has done for me, where He is taking me and into whom He is molding me. I know that He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.
So why on earth do I tremble in fear when something new and difficult comes my way?
Now, as the world sees it, I have reasons – good ones. But for one who has walked with God for so long (because He has taken my hand and shown me how – repeatedly) I am just frustrated at myself for once again failing to walk in His strength.
We all have times when our flesh makes the decisions – and we have to repent. But then realize that in our weakness His strength is made perfect.
And when we are still, and know that He is God, our strength is renewed in Him.
I will continue to walk in faith, knowing that if I turn to the right or to the left, I will hear a voice behind me saying “Walk THIS way.” And trust that He will not let my foot stumble or slip, because I know Him, love Him, obey His commands, and walk in His way.
Thank you, Lord God, for Your everlasting love and patience with me when I fall.
Your grace is sufficient.
My paraphrasing of scripture is in bold. Photo from nps.gov